Whitespace Neko

June 12th, 2013, 3:34 pm

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Reply TheCatMolloy, June 12th, 2013, 3:48 pm

He's pretty much recommending yoga and meditation, which actually isn't the worst possible suggestion.

Thanks to everyone who commented yesterday, you guys have always been wonderful whenever I've been going through my shit, and that *does* manage to sink in from time to time.

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Reply ComicGuy (Guest), June 12th, 2013, 4:40 pm

And neko shows us again that weed is the answer.
On another note something to distract you from everyday life works for me.
Stay distracted. stay safe and do drugs.:)

Reply Deonis, June 12th, 2013, 4:46 pm

That was quite the elaborate monologue you had there, good sir.

Reply VictorB, June 12th, 2013, 5:45 pm

Just a reflection how is your wife handling this time you are going through?

Reply GabrielsThoughts, June 12th, 2013, 5:51 pm

Dude, you can have more than one totem animal spirit guide. Unfortunately, that won't protect you from soul sucking vampire demons if you wonder off to look for another one in the void...

If you want to do that, you need to ask your current animal totem to watch over you while you find your second totem animal.

This is all formalistic nonsense, your muse is a dink. Consider amusing yourself with quarters. Surely, there are drinking games that can lift your spirits.

Reply Morgana (Guest), June 12th, 2013, 7:28 pm

Neko's Back! I'm glad you're coming back to this.

Uhm... so... good luck Depression sucks majorly, and it's hard to kick when it sets in, but it can be done.

Hopefully that all comes across as supportive and not rude; I'm not good at those things.

Reply mrminion2006 (Guest), June 13th, 2013, 10:52 am

Cuttle Fish Soothing scents while meditating or doing yoga always help ease the mind as well, I find. Also videos of sugar gliders in Cool Whip containers. That shit's just damn adorable right there!

Reply TheCatMolloy, June 13th, 2013, 11:36 am

@VictorB: Paige is being wonderful. She's been there, she gets it. I think it's hard for her. It can't be easy to love someone who's often incapable of receiving love, but she does it with such conviction that sometimes I can touch it through the walls. I'm learning to trust it again.

Paige (with the help of Jean Luc Picard and the crew of the USS Enterprise) once led me to the shocking realisation that I am in fact capable of falling in love. That I have a full set of human emotions in more-or-less correct proportions, and that it's OK to use them once in a while.

Anyway, shortly thereafter I had a fight with my best friend which he thought not worth resolving. He cut all ties and ignored my every attempt to communicate until I eventually lost faith in his friendship completely.

That loss of faith broke me for a while. I think the depression came on to numb the pain of that breaking. It didn't really work all that well, but at least it allowed me to be detatched and peculiar in my writing.

Anyway, the stuff I've been going through lately actually indicates recovery, it's just that recovery is the bit that looks weird and distressing to other people.

May as well talk about this while I'm talking about this: When you're depressed, you seem fine. You actually FEEL fine, it's just that 'fine' is all you're capable of feeling, and eventually that gets to you. The weird crying episodes and flashes of anger are actually signs that you're getting better. Fortunately I don't get them when other people are around, but I try not to shut them down immediately when they happen and I'm on my own.

Anyway, it's a weird experience. Hyperbole and a Half has done a couple of good comics on the subject if any of this is sounding eerily familiar to you and you want to read more.


Reply JimmytheJ (Guest), June 13th, 2013, 7:51 pm

The friend cutting-off contact thing happened with me once (from the whole group, actually). My brain has a tendency to latch onto stuff and make an era of depression of it in the summer holidays. This holiday nothing hugely bad happened for me to latch to, and I thought this to be good... severe grief / hypochondria / self loathing might not happen this time... but actually, there's been a whole lot of nothing, doing nothing and feeling little... maybe this time I'm worse than I thought... Today I shook it up, though. Took a train to a distant castle where I'd lost something cheap and of little significance a few days back. I'm a lego fan, see. And it was a muddled-figure of unusual parts I'd brought along for no reason other than taking photos- and I never took any. Losing him, I found myself unable to take photos I'd been intending on doing before, of the gang he was a part of (can't take a group photo when one is missing). Basically, a photo opportunity I was too lazy to take became a risky one I still didn't take and then one I could potentially NEVER take unless further steps were taken. And I took those steps today. I went out there, despite not knowing the way from the station, got there, searched. I never found him. But I had a 7-hour long freezing-cold adventure of much walking. I took the train one stop closer to home, and got off again, remembering a place that may yet have the parts to reconstuct him. Crazily enough I got there as they were shutting the gate-and managed to talk them into re-opening for me. I found replacement for 4/6 parts. I went one stop too far in an attempt to do further shopping for a gift, had to pay for it at the next station. I bought chocolate, and found a set with the hardest of the two remaining parts to replace. I then returned home... The scary thing for me is how such a big thing grew from a strange need to grab the figure on the way out of the door several days ago. It's like it was meant to be, yet not... Tomorrow, I hope to take that photo I procrastinated over to such disastrous results. I now have things I wouldn't have had otherwise, but am still down one easily-replaced tousled hairpiece. I wonder how that will affect the things I might build, or would have built... holistic fundamental interconnectedness, it gives me the heebie-jeebies, but if you can get annoyed enough to make a stand, it gets the job done. I'm tired and ramblesome, I hope this all makes some sense.

Reply VictorB, June 14th, 2013, 3:06 am

@ Cat Molloy With problems regarding a best friend, I can relate. However somewhat I was on the other end. To make a long story short, he sided with my ex, who was lying and cheating on me, as well as doing the most insane things I would have not forgave him if he wasn't my best friend, so I dropped him. I talked to him again and told him why it wouldn't work out and he showed no signs of using common sense, only using his girlfriend's wants (who is my ex's sister) above everything.

But I get what you are talking about when you talk about depression, more than you know. (which gives away why and thus makes the sentence redundant, but that's besides the point).

I am glad to hear that Paige is still with you, I really am. She sounds like a wonderful person and what would be called your soul mate (my beliefs in using that term aside).

Remember that you have a clan here to back you up too and if you asked, we would gladly submit fan comics for you. Basically, you are not alone. You have Paige, your friends, and your fans. More than most people have. Oh and looking at your top web comic page, you also have that steadily increasing by the day, witch backs up what I said.

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Reply NtKPaige, June 14th, 2013, 2:48 pm

See Gar. . . The Nekolytes and Fuckweasels get it, and they support you too. You're all united by a mutual love of Neko and something greater, being human-which includes all the ups and downs. They understand depression Gar, but you also owe it to your fans to reward their faith and affection by keeping going with Neko, even when the depression is beating you down, even when it seems too hard and the funny isn't coming.

I know you really took Neko not getting huge pretty hard, but you need to remember that isn't a reflection on the quality of the comic so much as a simple fact of numbers. You had (probably literally!) a one in a million chance of Neko taking off like Penny Arcade or C&H anyway, and to be honest, I'm kind of relieved it didn't. I love Neko, I love your work and I love you and my faith in you never waivered, but I also always worried that if it did take off, if Neko got huge, this would become your 24/7 job. And once something becomes a job, no matter how you love it, it's still a job, and once you HAVE to do something, rather than doing it for the sheer joy of it you start to resent it a little more and love it a little less. Maybe not straight away, maybe not in a year, but eventually, you will come to resent that what you once did for love you are now forced to do.

And on another note, I love you now just as much as I did when Jean Luc and I helped you realise that you are in fact not a robot. I have no plans to go anywhere, and even when I get annoyed with you for leaving bowls and cake crumbs on the floor, I still think you're pretty damn awesome. <3

Reply VictorB, June 15th, 2013, 2:02 am

If I be informal without being rude: @ Paige: Here Here. Well said!

By the way, What is a Fuckweasels? that doesn't sound like a good term....

@ Gar: I am sorry, I didn't realize that you were competing with C&H. I don't know about Penny Arcade, as I never heard of it, but I know that C&H is made by 4 or more guys throughout the years. Sure they are popular, but sometimes they miss the ball, they just have three guys more than one to pick up the slack and allow every day posting, increasing the views of their site. I am happy you aren't like them because I visit this site every day, if doing nothing else to vote for Neko the Kitty, because I am excited to see what new advenchas happen. Comparing you to C&H is like comparing potato chips to a Crème Brûlé. (C&H is the potato chips)

Gar, I started a webcomic of my own, not to be popular, but because you inspired me to share my ideas, as you have shared your imagination with us. I want to thank you for the experience so far and share my hope that this won't end any time soon.

Reply TheCatMolloy, June 15th, 2013, 2:26 am

@JimmytheJ: Heh, somewhat rambling (great googly moogly, man: PARAGRAPHS) but good on you for following the call to adventure and I hope you get some great photos :) Adventure is one of the great weapons against depression, it's why Keno's Keno.

@VictorB: Just because one person can stop caring doesn't mean nobody cares, or that care can't be trusted. Former-BFF broke that idea for a while. It's healing, finally, and thanks to Paige, my better friends, my family, and you guys, it looks like it's able to bear some weight.

In context, it's pretty silly for me to have a sense of profound isolation. The animated strip where Neko's laughing his ass off at Keno questioning himself (http://www.nekothekitty.net/comics/1663424/1077-slippery/) is a pretty good approach to a lot of internal conflicts.

@Paige: I know </carbonite>

Reply TheCatMolloy, June 15th, 2013, 3:26 am

@VictorB: You commented while I was composing a comment, now time is borken!

I'm pretty sure I'm not competing with the Cyanide & Happiness guys, not just in 'league' terms but of what we're doing with our respective comics. A lot of C&H gags rely on intruducing a character. There's the green guy, he seems to be one thing in the first panel, then his introduction turns out to have been misleading in some way and the blue guy has no legs any more. You can't do that sort of thing with a persistent timeline and characters like NtK has.

"Apples to oranges" is a more recognised phrase than "potato chips to creme brulee" but I'll accept the flattery. Cyanide and Happiness is one of the comics I read every day though. I doubt they'd mind being compared to chips in a cultural gastronomy metaphor as long as it's clear that they're damn good chips and not some soggy dollar-store garbage.

Reply Amiguruthi (Guest), June 15th, 2013, 10:34 am

I like Neko much better than C+H anyway :)

Have you considered publishing some of the early comics on the Kindle market place? it's free and it could earn you some cash plus promo to make this strip more well known.

I hope things pick up for you and the emotions keep on coming - as one of my mates used to say when the depression hit her, if anger and crying are good signs then round the corner must be happiness and ice creams.

Ooh ps - I crocheted a Neko a few months back, but I couldn't post the link here to show you (guess it picked up as spam or something). Is there an email address I can send a photo to? Just to show you how awesomely inspiring your work is :)

Reply GabrielsThoughts, June 15th, 2013, 1:18 pm

For Pete's sake, you do realize Penny arcade isn't a true web comic at all. It got most of its exposure and fans through playstation magazines.

Your comic is borderline hardcore alternative gold. And, I don't mean that in the Bubbles from Power-puff girl sense either.

Find a fetishistic magazine that promotes tattoos, S&M, latex, and/or furries. I'm sure the editors will love your work. Not to mention the fact that you don't have to compromise your creative integrity.

Reply VictorB, June 15th, 2013, 3:21 pm

@TheCatMolloy The reasons I used the Potato chip metaphor rather than apples and oranges is that both apples and oranges are both common fruit that you can find anywhere, like potato chips. However, yours is like a Crème Brûlé, a high class desert that non-spoiled people reserve for very special occasions. You are much more than an orange!

On a side note, I keep laughing when I say Crème Brûlé, because it litteraly means "Burnt cream" dispite it being an elegant desert.

Anyways, back to you. Please keep spoiling us!

Reply GabrielsThoughts, June 15th, 2013, 4:47 pm

@Victor B:

I respectfully disagree. I consider this comic to be more low brow and Id approved.

Reply brockster (Guest), June 15th, 2013, 6:21 pm

First comment I wanted to let you know that I absolutely adore your comic.I vote almost everyday and constantly check for updates. I enjoy it so much that I decided to name a kitten that randomly appeared on my birthday a few days ago after Keno. My Keno is a wonderful little advencharous guy that makes me smile constantly! I thank the universe for sending him to my family and the inspiration of your comic that gave him his name. Thank you for being a positive influence through your comic that I am so very in love with. It has brought a smile to face many times when I felt as though I had nothing to smile about. I read many comics but yours is one I look forward to most when I start my day.

Reply Taipan526, June 16th, 2013, 6:53 pm

Build a flamethrower and go to town on some innocent pizza boxes.

Always puts a smile on my face and makes life light up. :]

Reply Havockitten, June 17th, 2013, 11:49 am

self-aware metafictional entities... Paige is right about the change from beloved hobby to full-time job. It makes you more depressed than ever when you come to actually hate what you once loved. Totally been there.

On another note, I guess it's somewhat normal to find out your fictional characters develop minds of their own over the years, because a friend and I have been discussing it in length recently, most notably the complications that can arise when you and said character don't see eye-to-eye, or they just take off on their own path and you're like "Wait... get back here!" XD

Reply Agen (Guest), June 17th, 2013, 12:13 pm

NtKGar, would you mind if you shot an email my way?

Reply magic_beefy, June 17th, 2013, 8:50 pm

The Mighty Fuckweasels @VictorB: Mighty Fuckweasels is a term that Mcjefferstein used when he saw a grenade supposedly kill Gar, Lobster, Neko, Keno, and Poe back in comic #971.
If you read the comments on that page you will notice that some people really liked it and started using it in the real world so it became another term for 'Nekolyte'
So yea 'Mighty Fuckweasels' shouted at the top of someone's lungs is a bad term but just Fuckweasels means us the commenters/followers of Neko the Kitty

Reply Pepperpot (Guest), January 8th, 2015, 7:35 pm

still late @magic_beefy: isn't it also the name of the NtK hockey team?

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